I think everybody essentially feels lost in their 20s. Some just express that differently. At 22, I was a wreck. I had a pre-quarter-life crisis the day after I graduated from college. I had no plans. No ideas. No nothing. Just doing what everybody told me I should do. Which is like the rat on the wheel; I was moving but felt like I was standing still. Stuck. Constantly questioning what if I don’t get a job, what if I mess up at work, what if I don’t figure out my purpose? Wait, what the hell is purpose?!
Once I got my first job. I just felt like ok, I don’t know what do to. Truth, I went to Barnes and Nobles looking for a “Real World for Dummies” book after my first day. Guess what? No BOOK smh.
I read somewhere that the Twenties are about growth and discovery.
People kept saying, Cheryl you have a lot of potential. Um, ok thanks, but what is that?
I went through a phase of blaming college because I felt unprepared for “life.”
Shortly after that phase, I decided I wanted to create a platform to journal and share everything I’m learning about growth and discovery because – I know I am not alone. I question everything. Then I question the answer of the question until I find acceptance in it. But what would call this journey? I needed a word that described this very specific process of becoming my own person. In the dictionary, I scanned page after page and bloom there it is.
Bloom. It had character. It sounded ambitious. It was a process with an end goal – reaching that desired level of living as you intend. I found it!
I can tell you with certainty that life is going to shape you. You’re just going to go through STUFF. Some good, some bad, some painful, some awkward, some challenging, some easy, and some stuff you won’t understand until later as other pieces are put together. There’s nothing you can do about that. But even more importantly, I can tell you that you’ll be fine, wait, better than fine. But understand, fine doesn’t mean perfect.
I created this blog to share my story and journey, triumphs and trials, successes and failures, of becoming the woman and human being I want to be. Currently I am in the process of:
- Getting a life (that I love)
- Finding my style
- Dating WHOAs and WTFs as I find love (and let me tell you…can you say weirdos?!)
- Finding balance
- Fortifying MySELF (-worth, esteem, confidence, and awareness)
Welcome to my funny bizarre yikes of a life.
I am Bloom.