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Note to Self #3

Pay attention to what life is teaching you and where it’s taking you. If you were to tell me that I would survive some of the toughest emotional trials over the last 10 years – I’d tell you – nah, I’m not. I’m not that strong. Not someone breaking my heart. Not feeling like you might lose a parent.  Not defeat. Without a doubt I would tell my younger self, “Girllllll, if you don’t get yourself up off of that floor and assume total control of  your life – which absolutely includes your  happiness.” No one can take that away from you – and you should never put anything worth losing in the hands of someone else – particularly not your worth, happiness, finances and growth. That’s personal. As 2016 ended, I stumbled across a term that I am now fully implementing into my life. Like, aggressively applying to my life daily . Right now. Self-Reliance. I’m a total believer in developing  your (self-) Self-awareness Self-esteem Self-worth I just now, at 32, started to tell myself …

Day 4: Voices Carry

Usually when I know better but do otherwise, the voices carry When I don’t say what I should’ve.  Voices carry as scars As abuse As blows As sharp tongues cutting straight at the heart. For the opportunities I didn’t take advantage of Voice carry as a haunting regret. They used to hold me back. Keep me stuck. Keep me self-sabatoging. I’ve since learned to only listen to the voices that carry me more into myself. Into my truth. That speak life That keep me going Voices that carry my lineage My grandmothers My mother My father Age comes with a strict filter. To only allow my voice to carry me forward on my own terms. Voices only carry me in love nowadays.     FYI- In case I didn’t let you guys know, I’ve joined another writing challenge titled: #whensilencespeaks (20 days). Let’s see how it goes!!!    

02.02.17: wake up show up 

To wake up is a blessing I give thanks daily  When my feet touch the floor My mission for the day begins: to bloom To be unapologetically me To show up and be present  And open the gifts of the day Unpredictable  Perhaps bizarre; random but not To engage in  Laughter Love Conversations  Connections Candid subtleties #whensilencespeaks

A Different World

It’s a different world right now than what I envisioned With every new day, it seems that we go back to old ways Many have interjected and reminded me that we have come far from where we were – and I will agree But even in that moment of realization, I can’t help but think we should be so much further We could do so much better We would actually be great I can’t help but question and wonder, what as a people, are we afraid of? Why can’t we embrace our differences but understand we are one Why can’t we do what’s right instead of what is easy? Why can’t we empower each other instead of glorifying power? Why can’t we live in peace instead of setting it as a goal? Why can’t we be love and practice empathy instead embracing fear or saying “hope things work out for you real soon”? Real change requires vulnerability, courage and selflessness                              Money in …

Note To Self #2

I don’t say sorry as much, only when necessary. I don’t bite my tongue as much, only if I feel like I’m going to hurt you more than help you. I don’t accept bad behavior, only because there’s no excuse I can make for it anymore, and I don’t take anything for granted only because God has shown me that life can change literally in 24 hours. Cheers to 2017. You can’t have a happy new year living old ways. #bloomchronicles #myquirkylifeseries